Started thirteen years ago, while in a psychiatric hospital for suicide attempts, this book takes the reader through a long journey from an abusive childhood with a raging alcoholic father, into the crazy, insane world of alcoholism, drug addiction and mental illness. It is the life story of how one young woman who destroyed two marriages, many relationships, almost lost her children and eventually her sanity, chose to rise above her many difficulties and reach out for help. In taking the first step of admitting herself to a psychiatric hospital, she was able to admit that she was an alcoholic, drug addict, bipolar and depressed, and had been for many years. Eventually, it explained everything about her past behavior and why she did the things she did. The answer started to become clear. Hope became serenity, serenity turned into acceptance, acceptance developed into peace and the peace has led to an immense sense of joy and contentment. It took that one first step. I hope and pray that all who read this book can discover for themselves that anything is possible, that life is worth living, and you, too, can have this joy, today, and one day at a time.